I know from their eyes it's a hard life back there. After I left them everything have changed that I might should feel lucky being here. Life is never easy, every choice bring different concequency.
I hid my problem, it's better to only listen. In the end of day, maturity indeed hold more complexity. Did I betray them? Or actually they wanted to be betrayed? They said I'm lucky, I said their life at least in safety. Life, indeed a perfect mistery.