You think I am only pretending. I should tell you now that it's not as simple as you think it is. Whilst I currently grateful for everything has run so damn well, this moment to me is quit boring. So don't say that I am only see thing in a good way only, it's not my fault that I have become a lottery winner of my life. Don't say I only pretending, this way is the way it happen that makes me revive. Don't blame me for I did not feel suffer again, and don't blame me for being happy.